I don't know what to think. There's just a lot in my mind.. About some people, some stuff.. I feel like a burden to everyone. I feel like I'm a hopeless freak who's just an extra in the world. I know that Allah has made me for a reason, but I can't figure out the reason. It makes me feel retarded to think about these stuff.. Give me headache only.. Yes, I know it's been a long time since my mood is as low and down as now.. But everything happening currently just irritates me so much, I can't stand it. I thank people who gave me support.. But it all depends on me. If I think I'm hopeless, I guess I am, for thinking that way. Yes, people say, don't think that way, but I don't know what to think.. I don't know! I don't feel like using my brains to think anymore. I just want to use it to absorb things, but not learn anything. Don't know.. I don't feel like continuing the journey, but I have to, for some people's sake. I'll continue without thoughts..

Just leave me alone for these few days. I need time on my own to think. Honestly. Wait, I don't want to think! I don't know..