i.. don't feel like sleeping tonight.

on this night, many are already asleep.
but on this night, sleeping..
is not that important to me.

i don't want to sleep tonight.
just don't want to..

everyone brings their troubles into their sleep..
while i'm still awake on this night.
thinking.
no, trying not to think.

i want to make my mind numb.
i don't want it to think.
i don't want it to be unhappy.

but to be happy..
it's impossible..

why smile when it hurts?

so fake..
everyone's hiding their true selves..

but to live a fake life..
a life full of forced smiles and laughter..
that's not called life..

on this night, depression..
comes knocking on the door.

i feel so depressed..
so moody..
so.. helpless.

helpless over nothing.
depressed over something.
i don't know..

on this night..
i'm still awake..
shall try to stay awake..
i need time to think..

that's the problem with life.
there's no time for us to think..
about things we really want to think about..
how depressing..

sleeping.. is not what i want tonight.