the opportunity cost for me right now is time for studying. i think pre-reading is really useful and important as it helps me to understand the lectures better. i think i like econs. it's just the beginning though.

i hate it when i go all quiet. i hate it when i feel small. i hate it when i feel that i'm not good at all. i hate it when i'm lousy. i hate it when i go demoralised and go all depressed and gloomy and maybe that's what's making me look unfriendly and no one wants to get near me.

maybe i should just.. let someone else who is better qualified for the job to do it. it's making me feel useless and lousy. maybe it's because i simply am.