if everything had gone smoothly, i would be freaking out right now, because

9 MORE DAYS TO A LEVELS.
dundundun..

as it is, instead of facing it this year, i can listen to the horror stories from friends who will be sitting for it soon.. all the best to my fellow schoolmates and friends!

there they are studying for the big 'A', and here i am rotting at home, waiting for the big 'P': promotional examination results. 18 more days.

lots of 'what if's and 'should have's running through my mind. actually more like running to my mind and resting there? so many regrets.. what if i don't get promoted? i don't want to disappoint my mum yet again.. sigh why am i like this..

what if i don't even get to touch an official a level exam paper? suddenly i feel so demoralised.. it's like, during mid-year examination, the only subject i couldn't pass was economics, but now, the tables are turned: i have confidence of passing only economics.. and even so, now that i've typed that out, i don't know if i can even pass that.. but there's nothing i can do now. leaving it to God.

for now, let's pray.. and wait.

zu.
twentythree.
still finding my way.
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