i am feeling so 'urgh!' until there's no words to describe it. i feel so.. ..

AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

.. messed up.

i hate it. i hate this. i hate now. i hate this mess. but the thing i hate most is.. ahh, this is so infuriating. sheesshhhhhsh.

i want to play soccer, let it all out. but like what she said, it's just a form of escape.. escapists.. i don't want to be an escapist.. i don't want to be anything..

everything (well almost) is falling apart.. distance, drifting off..



so frustrating.