so numb

the feeling's just like last year
holding on to nothing
kept hoping that it didn't happen
saying that when morning comes
everything will be fine

the feeling's just like last year
even when morning came
everything rushes into mind
what had happened
did it really happen
it did happen

so numb
so speechless

the feeling's just like last year
except now it's worse
feeling so numb
angry?
sad?
depressed?

many more words to describe the feeling
but one word
blank

the numb feeling
it feels worse than crying
all you feel is blank
don't even know which emotion to show

so numb..
i wish i can scream everything out
i want to run till i collapse
cry till it feels empty

even so
doing that doesn't change the fact

so i'll just

hope

for now

i'll hold back everything
and keep on hoping that it isn't true..