Life.
POSTED ON Thursday, April 17, 2014 AT 4:53 PM \\
The list:
1. 1304 (afternoon)
2. 1404? (morning)
3. 1504 (evening)
4. 1504 (night)
5. 1604 (evening)
6. 1604 (night) + 1704 (morning)
7. 1804?
The list looks kinda random, but let's start.
1. I really need to learn how to talk to people. Interact. I think my EQ is kinda low. So I followed my her instructions (advice) and asked about his wellbeing. And that's it.
Now I don't even know whether the opportunity will come round again. Or ever. (But enough about this as of now.) Come to think of it, we're not that close. I think it is my fault. I'm just not sociable enough.
But at least, the final proper time.
2. Every few months or so, I would get confirmation, on where she stands on this matter. It's hard, but it's the truth. I suppose a slap of reality every once in a while is necessary to keep reminding me of life's (death's) end goal.
3. Met up with BSM. Sadly SH couldn't make it. I'm the kind of person who does not really like it when people praise me. It makes me uncomfortable. But hearing HY saying that to me, it still made me feel uncomfortable but at the same time, I felt this weird tingly sensation coursing through every nerves in my body. She said it in such a sincere and earnest manner that it made me so self-aware about how I am emotionally lacking at times. Plus it's been like more than a year or so since we last met up, it makes it more memorable, more meaningful.
How time flies. 4 years ago. See how life works. One mistake led to a new door, and the door stayed open even until now.
4. I really wonder how our brain works. How it makes people in our daily lives appear in our dreams. Dreaming itself is an abstract concept. How is it possible for one to feel a person in a dream? The tender touch lingers on the fingertips. I suppose it's just pure imagination. It's like, you don't even know how the texture feels like, but you can still feel it even after waking up.
Maybe dreaming is a platform for one's deepest desires.
5. So, it was raining. I enjoy walking in the rain, so I did so. Along the way, a stranger with an umbrella offered to share his umbrella with me. I was like, no it's okay, but he walked with me. Turns out we were heading towards the same direction. We talked almost throughout the train journey, knowing each other's names (B) only in the middle of the whole conversation.
To cut a long story short, I wouldn't have talked to a random stranger on the road. I would have kept to myself and read my book throughout the journey home.
It's funny because if I had taken out my umbrella, we would just be two strangers on the road, two separate entities. Just because I didn't use my umbrella, our paths converged. Strangers to familiar faces. And that's how simple people meet each other. Lines got tangled.
Told her about this (philosophical much) and she said that somehow we'll meet again, because there would be a bond formed between us.
6. Life throws us curve balls. Every morning the train will be crowded. Among the nameless faces, we will never know how many people are struggling to keep their life intact even though all the walls are breaking apart. We will never know what their future, or even their present, holds. We will never know each other's stories.
7. 1804 became 1704. "Surely we belong to Allah (SWT) and to Him shall we return."
.إِنَّا لِلّهِ وَإِنَّـا إِلَيْهِ رَاجِعونَ
And that aptly sums up this post with this title, albeit in a lamentable manner.
Life.
POSTED ON Thursday, April 17, 2014 AT 4:53 PM \\
The list:
1. 1304 (afternoon)
2. 1404? (morning)
3. 1504 (evening)
4. 1504 (night)
5. 1604 (evening)
6. 1604 (night) + 1704 (morning)
7. 1804?
The list looks kinda random, but let's start.
1. I really need to learn how to talk to people. Interact. I think my EQ is kinda low. So I followed my her instructions (advice) and asked about his wellbeing. And that's it.
Now I don't even know whether the opportunity will come round again. Or ever. (But enough about this as of now.) Come to think of it, we're not that close. I think it is my fault. I'm just not sociable enough.
But at least, the final proper time.
2. Every few months or so, I would get confirmation, on where she stands on this matter. It's hard, but it's the truth. I suppose a slap of reality every once in a while is necessary to keep reminding me of life's (death's) end goal.
3. Met up with BSM. Sadly SH couldn't make it. I'm the kind of person who does not really like it when people praise me. It makes me uncomfortable. But hearing HY saying that to me, it still made me feel uncomfortable but at the same time, I felt this weird tingly sensation coursing through every nerves in my body. She said it in such a sincere and earnest manner that it made me so self-aware about how I am emotionally lacking at times. Plus it's been like more than a year or so since we last met up, it makes it more memorable, more meaningful.
How time flies. 4 years ago. See how life works. One mistake led to a new door, and the door stayed open even until now.
4. I really wonder how our brain works. How it makes people in our daily lives appear in our dreams. Dreaming itself is an abstract concept. How is it possible for one to feel a person in a dream? The tender touch lingers on the fingertips. I suppose it's just pure imagination. It's like, you don't even know how the texture feels like, but you can still feel it even after waking up.
Maybe dreaming is a platform for one's deepest desires.
5. So, it was raining. I enjoy walking in the rain, so I did so. Along the way, a stranger with an umbrella offered to share his umbrella with me. I was like, no it's okay, but he walked with me. Turns out we were heading towards the same direction. We talked almost throughout the train journey, knowing each other's names (B) only in the middle of the whole conversation.
To cut a long story short, I wouldn't have talked to a random stranger on the road. I would have kept to myself and read my book throughout the journey home.
It's funny because if I had taken out my umbrella, we would just be two strangers on the road, two separate entities. Just because I didn't use my umbrella, our paths converged. Strangers to familiar faces. And that's how simple people meet each other. Lines got tangled.
Told her about this (philosophical much) and she said that somehow we'll meet again, because there would be a bond formed between us.
6. Life throws us curve balls. Every morning the train will be crowded. Among the nameless faces, we will never know how many people are struggling to keep their life intact even though all the walls are breaking apart. We will never know what their future, or even their present, holds. We will never know each other's stories.
7. 1804 became 1704. "Surely we belong to Allah (SWT) and to Him shall we return."
.إِنَّا لِلّهِ وَإِنَّـا إِلَيْهِ رَاجِعونَ
And that aptly sums up this post with this title, albeit in a lamentable manner.
z2t.
zu.
twentythree.
still finding my way.
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